October 11, 1862 [cont’d]
Van Dorn has been terribly repulsed at Corinth. He telegraphed a victory after the first two days, but the enemy being reinforced, a new face & one adverse to us, was put up on everything & he compelled to retreat with great loss. The enemy report a like loss, especially amongst their officers, but no particulars as yet. Lee’s army is represented in fine condition & spirits, not known whether or not it is falling back or offering battle.
We had a brush at Franklin & drove back three Gunboats sent up to reconnoiter with heavy loss—from our sharp shooters on the banks. For that God be praised! The enemy has been heavily reinforced both at Suffolk & Newberne & all things point to an advance into N Carolina. Grant us strength to bear what Thou sendest O Lord.
We left Raleigh about day break without breakfast & had a most fatiguing ride home, which we reached about sun set. Ah! how I enjoyed my own tea! How long can I drink it—how long enjoy the blessed quiet which reigns around us? Journal! This book does not seem natural to me at all! It depresses me to write in it. I think the hopes which clustered around the opening of a career so bright as that of the owner of this book & how they were clouded & the shipwreck of a life on the altar of ambition & politics & shrink more into myself & my home duties & associations than ever. I have not enough to tell you to make me shake off the feelings which oppress me. It is a dull gloomy afternoon. The rain falls, drip! drip drip! Mr E is gone to the meeting for the defence of our homes & I feel dispirited by my surrounding. So I will stop—so tais toi & au revoir!
Source: Edmondston, Catherine Ann Devereux, 1823-1875, Journal of a Secesh Lady: The Diary of Catherine Ann Devereux Edmondston 1860-1866. Crabtree, Beth G and Patton, James W., (Raleigh, NC: North Carolina Division of Archives and History, 1979). http://nc-historical-publications.stores.yahoo.net/478.html