Camp Gregg, April 5th 1863
My dearest and ever true Wife
I have received no letter since I wrote you in the 2nd inst. Your letter started on last thrusday night to have reached before this & has given me much disappointment but I am afraid that the delay is to be attributed to the irregularity of the mail which must also be delivered to you for your failure to get mine. According to your last you had not rec’d but one from me and this is the fourth I have written you since that one. By this time you should have rec’d them all & I hope they will come safely to hand.
We are still at Camp Gregg prepared to march at any moment. Last night gave us another heavy snow fall and it is covering the earth this morning at a depth of five or six inches & it is still snowing. The air is very cold and this will delay our movement for several days to come. What I would not give to spend this time as I am lonely and dreary as it is in Camp without my beloved wife! To deny your request to visit me is to deprive myself of the greatest pleasure which could be afforded me but duty & affection alike forbids it. I am forced to stifle the impulses of the hearth & listen to the stern dictates of the Army. If at any time I can get a furlough to visit Richmond I will notify you so that we can meet there. In the meantime we must make the best of our lot.
I have suffered a good deal since I came back in the torpidity of lines. I think there was a slight attack of Jaundice, but I am much better now and in a day or so I will be perfectly restored with my health. There has been a considerable improvement in my spirits & though my darling Kate occupies the greater portions of my thoughts, I have learned to submit to our separation with a calm resignation and abiding hope that it can not last for too long.
Night before last I had a sweet dream it was the only time where I could almost feel my sweet Kate, if only in my dreams. We were together, your hand in mine & your head resting on my shoulder. I was too happy to think of where we were but it was enough to know that my dearest wife was by my side with her head pillowed on my bosom.
I look anxiously for your next letter on this evening and trust it may come. My best to your mother & kindest regards to all. Three shirts are plenty for me now & I could do with two more of them, so let me knw when they are ready. Farewell, a fond farewell to my own dear wife. God bless you.
Your devoted Husband
Source: Christopher Watford, ed. The Civil War in North Carolina: Soldiers’ and Civilians’ Letters and Diaries, 1861-1865, Volume 1 and original in A.M. Scales Collection, North Carolina State Archives.