September 4, 1864
Disappointed today in my hope of seeing Mr Edmondston. The carriage came back from Weldon empty. Why is it that I am so uneasy? I am ashamed of myself for apprehensions which I can neither define or conquer, & it being Sunday I am debarred from active employment which would help to dispel them. Father heard at Church from some one more fortunate than we in getting papers that a battle, with as yet doubtful results, was in progress between Hood & Sherman. I do not like such “doubts.” With Kirkpatrick I like to “mak siccar.”
After midnight last night to my infinite surprise & pleasure I heard Mr E’s step on the back step — & in a moment after his tap & voice at my window. I needed no light to find my way to the door to let him in when he told me that brother & Mr Wm Smith were with him, having come in the Sunday’s train from Raleigh. Mr S brought him down from Halifax in his buggy. I soon had beds ready for our tired guests & could scarce beleive that already my gloomy presentments were at an end & heartily ashamed was I of having, I can’t say, indulged for I struggled womanfully against them but having had them. He had been detained in Oxford by a heavy rain & as his throat was already sore preferred losing a train to riding 24 hours in his wet clothes. Pattie bore the journey well & the presence of her sister seemed to compose & comfort her. God be with this poor young thing! Bad news today from Atlanta. A telegram tells us that it has fallen, tho how or why remains to be seen. Brother is despondant & a gloom is cast over the family in which, however sad as the news is, I cannot share. My thankfulness for Patrick’s return counterbalances all this depression.
Source: Edmondston, Catherine Ann Devereux, 1823-1875, Journal of a Secesh Lady: The Diary of Catherine Ann Devereux Edmondston 1860-1866. Crabtree, Beth G and Patton, James W., (Raleigh, NC: North Carolina Division of Archives and History, 1979).http://nc-historical-publications.stores.yahoo.net/478.html